A Loss of Depth




I'm currently reading The Gutenberg Elegies by Sven Birkerts

"We are experiencing in our times a loss of depth. Indeed, we tend to act embarrassed around those once-frieghted terms - truth, meaning, soul, destiny... We suspect the people who use such words of being soft and nostalgic. We prefer the deflating one-liner that reassures us that nothing need be taken seriously; we inhale the atmospheres of irony."

I long for challenging conversations and deeper understanding. I'm not sure if I was meant for more, but I am demanding it anyway. There is more to life than frivolity and pleasure, and more to life than work and suffering too. I've found a new small group and hope that these ladies will be willing to cast of atmospheres of irony with me and pursue truth and depth. 

It is Thanksgiving break and I am nesting. Decluttering. Preparing. I had a doctor's appointment Thursday past. The doctor said Thumper may be a tall girl. I pray that she is tall and healthy and full of joy. 

It's nearly Thanksgiving and time to share a meal with my extended family. I'm thankful for this time in FL and already find myself mourning knowing a time will come when we leave here. Leaving behind large pieces of my heart. 

Loss of Depth

I'm currently reading The Gutenberg Elegies by Sven Birkerts

"We are experiencing in our times a loss of depth. Indeed, we tend to act embarrassed around those once-frieghted terms - truth, meaning, soul, destiny... We suspect the people who use such words of being soft and nostalgic. We prefer the deflating one-liner that reassures us that nothing need be taken seriously; we inhale the atmospheres of irony."

I long for challenging conversations and deeper understanding. I'm not sure if I was meant for more, but I am demanding it anyway. There is more to life than frivolity and pleasure, and more to life than work and suffering too. I've found a new small group and hope that these ladies will be willing to cast of atmospheres of irony with me and pursue truth and depth. 

It's Thanksgiving break and I am nesting. Decluterring. Preparing. I had a doctor's appointment Thursday past. The doctor said Thumper may be a tall girl. I pray that she is tall and healthy and full of joy. 

It's nearly Thanksgiving and time to share a meal with my extended family. I'm thankful for this time in FL and already find myself mourning knowing a time will come when we leave here. Leaving behind large pieces of my heart. 

Reshaping


I had a doctor's appointment today. Each appointment is a reminder that the entire essence of my life is soon to change. I have about 9 weeks of pregnancy left. 9 weeks in this unique season where I am a mother, but haven't yet held my daughter nor yet the full understanding of what motherhood is. 

We received a sample package with two newborn diapers in the mail. My husband and I marveled at how small and fragile this new life will be. How fragile our hopes and expectations are. I'm thankful for her twisting and kicking that soothes my worries.

We picked out a crib set we picked out for her today. I spend so much time investing in every detail of her environment and dreaming of what her life will be. I have to remind myself that she ultimately belongs to God. That His plans will prevail. Motherhood is reshaping and maturing my blind spots. God help me to nurture and love this child, and to point her to your goodness.